Happy Birthday Alley!!

(after camp....)


(muka freshie masuk maktab perguruan gaya... penuh bergaya gitu.. =) )

I dedicate this one to one of my bestfwen, Alviana Fedora.. Happy Birthday Alley.. =) God bless u always and although all of us are not together this year, we shall always UNITE as one.. (the word UNITE makes me recall back the time I present Charlie Company's flag..) 6 January 2007, which makes me really well-known since then in camp to the further extend that I was called ''a future lawyer" by camp friends til' now. Lorh...mish camplife again.. huhue.. x)

Back to the real point, Alley...thanx for being a real friend and hope to stay close as real friends.. Hope to meet you soon.. Take care..do ur best in all ur undertakings.. We,my friend, will always support u from any directions as we always did before.. Friendships forever.. =)

how am i today..?? hrmm...

Just dunnoe what should my itchy fingers blog today.. Hrmm..maybe a lil' quote could cheer up a bit.. heheh..

We always know that looking back on tears would make us laugh but lil' that we know by looking back on laughs would make us cry...

Life isn't always ideal or romantic,but it's ok..just learn to appreciate and forgive..and you will make the best of your life..



How hard izit to get a real friend?? The one that won't cheat u? The one that never put their backs on you? The one that stays wit u even in times of sadness and being lonely?



We often heard in life nowadays that friends only exist in times of hapiness but can hardly see one in times of bad luck etc. But of all those friends, I really appreciate a person.. He never is wit me during my gud times, I know why.. It's better because we both have our own ways and and our own special love ones.. We wouldn't want to change the gud times into the bad ones just because our love one turns green.. heheh.. But he's always there in times of need.. That's one thing that really make me respect him.. He's just like a bro to me (no more than that...) In any situation, he would always advice me to forgive and appreciate what I have..cause' I might have better than those of bad luck.. heheh.. Yeahh..I agree on that.. One thing to share with you all which he adviced me years back:



1. Treat the person how u wanna be treated, and dont ever treat a person the way u never wanna be treat.



2. To make them realized their mistakes is to tell them straight in the first place, if it doesn't work then let them feel what it's like to be treated that way.. (in a considerate mode k..)

Does it help u?? Let me know oaite.. hehe..

U're so U Exco...

It's late but i have to admit i just woke up at 10a.m.. Couldn't be help..our meeting ended around 12 last night.. and I haven't had dinner even cause' it was an emergency meeting.. Duhh!! After silat training at 7p.m, I got d message saying "mpp meeting in half an hour".. What the...! Great!!





Urghh!! What now?? Luckily I've got an understanding bf (can't entertain him lorh.. =) )... I'm one of the exco's here.. (Kesenian, Kebudayaan & Warisan..) Yeap!! That's mine oaite..





My troop is coming over to SARAWAK tis June.. OmG!! heheh.. I'm in-charged of the whole thing.. Phew!! God bless me.. Our trip is scheduled 1st - 5th June.. 2 days in Betong and 3 days in Kuching.. Hope it goes out well.. Everythings almost done by now.. Pity me.. Have to catch-up with everything. Studies, finals, asgmnts, tutorials,silat tournament and personals.. hehe.. Phew!! heheh.. You might think I'm not busy..If only you see me here.. hehe.. Meals would be the last thing on my list.. Sometimes have to end the day without dinner.. and sometimes start the day without brunch.. My tutors and mates would have to force me to get my meals..and FINISH it! I'm not the person who finish meals though BUT they have to force me cause' I hardly have mine.. Thanks for being concern u guys..





Last night after my presentation, Prof just smile and said to me "u're SO U Exco" hehe.. Eventually, I'm the youngest..but with BIG responsibilities.. Yeaahh prof, I had to agree that I'm just SO me.. hehe.. Cause' I am me in my own ways.. huhu..

Does love requires REASONS???

Does LOVE requires reasons to be given or to be accepted?? (In other words, do we need reasons to love and to be loved??)

Heheh... Where on earth did I get such topic all of sudden?? After gardening session yesterday evening (it's witching hours now..huhu), my housemates and I felt like cooking for dinner so throughout the "cooking" (cooking or sitting and chat owh?? heheh.. whatever lah..), we kinda get our interest on how couples in the new era really think of love.. (ahaks! as if we were adults! duhh..!) But, Hello?? We're not girls anymore, not yet to be call women too..(thats obvious ain't it?) heheh.. makes me remember Britney's words.. "I'm not a girl, not yet a woman" hikhik.. Owh..that does it..Back to the storyline vel....

Ok, couples nowadays had their mindset that whenever a guy or a girl falls for them, there is sure to be something which has got to be in them that makes the other sex likes them. That is true for sure, but does it mean LOVE?? Does love requires all that hanky panky stuff to grow inside us?? (Still blurry eyh??..)

Well, here's an illustration which tinkles my bell to follow up with this topic that I bet would steal your attention for a moment. =)

This takes place near a beatiful lake, a newly wed couple were having their evening walk. As usual, they would stop at their favourite bench spot to enjoy the beautiful scenery. But, on that day the wife suddenly ask her husband.....

W : Hubby, why do u like me? Why do u love me??

(suprised by the odd question...the husband answered....)

H : I can't find the exact words to explain why I like u or why I love u hunny, but I really love u from the bottom of my heart.

W : You can't explain? Then how come u said u love me if u can't explain??

H : It's true, I don't know the reason but I can prove to u that I really love u eventhough I can't explain.

W : No BUT's! No need for prove! I only want u to explain to me why u love me. All my colleagues have had their answers from their love ones. Some of them even got their answers through poems and songs. Unlike u, u can't even explain it but u dare say u love me..

Upon hearing that, her husband took a deep breath and said..

H : Alright! I love u because you're gorgeous in my eyes, you have that sweet voice, because you're caring and because I'm always on your mind. I also like you because I'm touched by your sweet smile and my love abides with you through every footstep you take.

Yeahh! For sure his wife was satisfied BUT a few days later his wife met with an accident an became unconcious. He was so sad that he wrote her a letter which then he placed beside her bed in the hospital. He wrote....

"Hunny, if it was because of your sweet voice that I love you, can u speak now? No! Then I have no reason to love you now.. If it was because of your love and care and also that I'm always on your mind that I love you, will you be able to show it now?? No! Then I have no reason to love you now.. If it was because of your sweet smile that I love you, can you now smile?? No! So, I have no reason anymore to love you.. If it was because that my love abides in every footstep that you take, can you now walk? No! If so I can't love you. If love requires reasons, how about now?? I don't have any reasons left to love you. DOES LOVE REQUIRES REASONS?? NO! I will still love you yesterday, now and forever without reasons because as I've told you before I REALLY LOVE YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART.."

Sometimes, the BEST and the MOST BEAUTIFUL things couldn't be seen and touch. Even so, we still can feel it in our hearts..

When the HEART sings, it means the WHOLE WIDE WORLD.... Real story...

"Permintaan Terakhir" or also known as "Nyanyian Penjara" video here is a reality. It's a true story about a guy named A who killed his girlfriend B (his wife in another week actually) and his girl's ex. When this song was created, A was in jail waiting for his "death call" and this song was his last wish.

According to the story, A have been waiting for B one year before they declare their relationship. He loves her so much that he would do anything just for her and would never let her go. But a week before their "special day", her ex-boyfriend named Z suddenly return to her and wanted her to return to him. Without further hesitation, the girl left A to be with Z.

With love so deep, the way B left him to be with Z eventually blows a small fire into a wrath! There was no mercy in A's thoughts. He murdered both his girl and her ex.

A wish he could escape death sentence if he surrenders himself to the police but later he realized it was impossible so he request for his friends to help him in jail with the song. ( the video above is only a show thing..pls do go see it in youtube for more..)

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This gives me a point of thought that we should actually appreciate our partner. It might be easy to love a person, but do the person loves us much as we love them? It might be easy to be love, but do we love them as much as they do??

Friends, being loyal is a must in every relationship. Being trustworthy is a relationship's "Star of victory ". Being understanding is another important point. This is for all of you out there...

Never say I LOVE YOU, if you don't really care.

Never talk about feelings, if they aren't really there.

Never hold my hand, if you're gonna break my heart.

Never say you're going to... , if you don't plan to start.

Never LOOK INTO MY EYES, if all you DO is lie.

Never say HI, if you really mean GOODBYE.

IF YOU REALLY MEAN FOREVER, then say you will try.

But, NEVER SAY FOREVER, cause forever makes me cry....

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To anyone out there, please don't play with people's feelings.. If you ever did once, then it's time to stop. Think of how hurt they'd be. Think of how you'd feel if you're in their boots.

To risk my love I'll never ever do, when I say I LOVE HIM it's REALLY REALLY TRUE..

Deep in my heart....

" If you love somebody, could it be this strong??

I will fight to win, our love will conquer all,

Wouldn't risk my love, even just one nyte..

Our love will stay in my heart.. MY HEART...."

# I wish I could tell him I mean more than just "I LOVE YOU"

# I wish I could tell him nothing else matters just to be with him

# I wish I could make him realized that he's all that I've ever wanted

# I wish I could turn back time and get rid of the bad times

# I wish he understands that I never really mean all those bad words

# I wish I was given a better HEART to LOVE & UNDERSTAND him MORE,

# I wish he could understand how much i need him, he'd be there for me and I'd

be there for him anytime he needs me

# I wish I could tell the WHOLE WIDE WORLD that I'm proud to be his

# I wish I wouldn't have hurt him so much just because he does.. (i shouldn't

repay bad things rite??)

# I wish I could express my SORRIES to him the way I really felt inside.. (nw

hw's dat??)

Love him so much, yet I hurt him. Miss him so much, yet we argue. Adore him, yet unconciously insult him. Need him so much, yet we let go in times of need.

I'm gonna be a REALLY GOOD GIRL after this, I won't hurt him though I'm gonna be hurt. I'll make sure my tounge doesn't go INSULTING though I'm insulted, my problems would be mine alone cause' mine seems to be another ppl's problem and its d starting of an arguement point (yet my intentions was only to get someone i trust to hear me). Owh, I wish, I wish, I wish, and I wish I could ACTUALLY EXPRESSED WHAT MY LIL' HEART ACTUALLY SAYS.....

When a GIRL.......

When a GIRL is quiet,
Millions of things are running in her mind.

When a GIRL is not arguing,
She is thinking deeply.

When a GIRL looks at you with eyes full of questions,
She is wondering how long you will be around.

When a GIRL answers "I'm fine" after a few seconds,
She is not at all fine.

When a GIRL stares at you,
She is wondering why are you lying.

When a GIRL lays on your chest,
She is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a GIRL calls you everyday,
She is seeking for your attention.

When a girl sms's you everyday,
She wants you to reply at least once.

When a GIRL says I love you,
She means it.

When a GIRL says that she can't live without you,
She has made up her mind that you are her future.

When a GIRL says "I miss you",
No one in this world can miss you more than her.................

Bestfriends Forever!!!

Sylvia Bunga ( a nice charming girl... heheh)

(my so called "twin sissy" in camp..Anthianne Willy Badi)

Alviana Fedora (woitt makcik! She's da one chasing me to the bathroom if I miss a second late to bath.. heheh.. miss camp life so much!!)

(This is me, the notie one among us..should say the middle of 5)

I dedicate this one to my BF's (heheh..don't get me wrong.. It's BESTFRIENDS!!)

It's a pity i don't have one more pic of our friend to complete the gang, Dayang.. (dyg, iboh manas k.. lak ku dapat gamba kwu, ku edit.. heheh..)

All of us are now studying in different places..but hope to reunite as we are before.. MISH U GURLS SO MUCH!!!!

Gettin' used to it, or getting used to wanna do it??

Everyone knows in life we certainly do have UP's and DOWN's. That includes everything. Nothing can escape from facing difficulties. Well, it's not a new phenomenon after all.

Well for me, the biggest challenge of all in life is to maintain a relationship. At least for my age of course. Studying in easier, being myself is easier, even apologizing could be far more easier than to maintain a relationship. Phew! Now back to real point, where should I start eyh....

Okay, the reason I'm bloging this up is to ask me myself or even to ask anyone who comes passing by in reading this.. I'm sure everyone would have more than experiences in having a loveship or in handling a relationship (well, maybe not everyone, but I'm definitely sure it's gonna be like "MAJORITY"). Why I'm saying that, it's because researches have come to show that normal people would have, like, up to more than 3 broken relationships before they ever meet their real spouse.

So my point is, when we get to relate to someone and we have 'unique' ways in handling our previous relationship, will we, like, bring in forward into our new one?? For example, the way our ex treats us?? Will we actually treat our new couple the way our ex used to treat us just because we're phobia of getting the same way of treatings again?? You know, it's just like we're escaping from getting treated the same to the extent that we treat him/her first the way we actually fear of..

Most girls do, and they get extremely over the edge when they do so. Thats why guys nowadays becomes more and more careful in picking their girl.. But little do they know that it was them all along which put girls to actually change their strategies in handling guys. ( of course not every guy in the world would act so, I'm just taking a point for example,k..)


In a girl's case (a friend I know) in real life, she and I grew up together and I actually know every single bit of her previous relaltionship. This guy S (not the real name k..) treats her the way I obviously should say CRUEL although he loves her. On what purpose did i mentioned cruel?? It's because he never gave her the opportunity to show up, or to express her thoughts in their relationship. Everything that the guy said would be a MUST and FINAL decision. Woah! So, how's that to your opinion guys??


Everytime they quarrel, the guy would knocked her down with words although not harsh words, but very pinningful which ends up her tounge's tied up and follow his rules. You guys would probably think that she hates her bf right?? Well, actually SHE LOVES HIM SO MUCH and to me that sure is insane.. Until one day, I couldn't take it no more seeing her crying helplessly everytime they quarrel. So I approached her and asked:


Me: Hw could u be so strong in loving him though he treats u badly? Where on earth did u ever get the strength??


True enough that love makes us blind..


Girl: He is my first love and every single thing that he did wouldn't make me love him a bit less than today, even if I had to face it being hurt almost everyweek.



Good gracious me!! Now, that's what I named ridiculous.. Imagine being hurt almost every week, and you still say you love him.. TOTALLY INSANE & BLINDED BY LOVE~~ She remained like that UNTIL the guy left her and what happened??



(Do u guys really wanna now??)






Ok, she went crazy like hell!! But still begging the guy to come back to her. Really pity her but I guess that was the best for her that the guy leaves so that she would no longer be hurt by him. For months she wept for him when she's back home in her room, from a neat pretty lass she changed into a miserable looking and untidy too..


(Love does makes BIG changes in life huh..?? Scary if it's the negative part)


I tried cheering her up.. being with her, motivating her until she came back to real life again and after a few months (almost a year actually), she met with a guy. Though still hoping for her ex bf to return to her but she accept him because she was lonely and thought of giving this new guy a chance.


What actually happened in her was....


She was afraid that this new guy would treat her the same as her ex bf. So, not wanted to be treated like the past, she started it first to treat him the same not knowing the new guy was also treated the same way by his ex gf too wanted to start treating her the same because he feared that she would do the same like his ex.. Duhh..! Complicated and tis' situation is starting to give me a headache.. huhu..


So, what next??

Because of that, at the early stage of their relationship they quarrel almost EVERYDAY!! hahah! Stupid! But they still stick to one another. Little by little, they realized that they shouldn't react like both their ex's and just be themselves. There was no point of fearing each other because both of them had that pureness in heart, which is pure love towards one another. Oww..How sweet eyh.. heheh..






Well, there was nothing to be serious about gettin' used to it, nor gettin' used to wanna do it anyway.. Heheh.. It's just being you yourself and that's the solution to everything. Let people accept you of who you are, not of who they want you to be. If they don't, well it's not a problem anyway..

And the couples?? They're happy until now being the most loving couple you could ever think of.. Quarrels? Of course they do argue at times, but that's just another stepping stone to a brighter future together.. Heheh










*TQs for reading..hope you've enjoyed it*

Stupid Couples!! (Part 2)

Again about STUPID COUPLES!! My lecture is schedule at 8.30 in the morning but I woke up at 8.15a.m. Thanks to the most "ROMANTIC" couple (which is the only couple in my class. If it was not because of them, I would have had enough sleep. The BEST part is, "I'M HAVING MY LAW TEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" at 8.30a.m. S**T!!

Lucky me, it was an open book test. I'll surely go insane if it wasn't. So, u might think that was a HAPPY ENDING right?? NOT AT ALL.. Right after the Law test, our oral was suppose to take place and I'm totally not in the mood. So, I just left college and went back straight to my room with Adik following behind. She was as angry as I was too..but obviously I'm angrier cause I wouldn't have left all the team members without hesitate.

The others continue to join the next class which is ORAL.. They tried giving all kinds of excuses just because me and Adik wasn't there. Sir Tarmizi decline, and wanted the oral thingy to be settle the very same day.. Ahaks! All 4 of them were desperate by then and tried all sorts of soft words to melt down my anger, but since it's very hard to see me in a wrath, so u would have guess correctly that I didn't fall for any of their words. Pity them, but I have to teach them a lesson. A lesson for not being serious when I say it's VERY IMPORTANT to me. I wanted to help them in the first place but they wouldn't like wanna help themselves, so that's it!!

Then, as I was just about to have my first bite (lunchtime that was), my phone rang and I just hand it over to Adik. She told me the message that Sir wants our group to present our oral by hook or by crook at 4 p.m the same day. I gave it a thought, and after lotsa apologizing messages from the team members, I finally agreed.

Since there was still time for us, I told them to practise and that I want no excuses and be on time, which would be 2 p.m SHARP!!

And there they were, 2 p.m sharp waiting for me. We started the practise, tis' time beatifully and I appreciate their effort for not putting me down. Exactly 4 p.m, we entered the lecture hall and Sir Tarmizi was already waiting with 3 other teams. I apologized for running out of track and we continued the sketch thingy. Praise God, everything went out right and Sir sure did enjoy our presentation. =)

Later after the presentation, I gave my friends advices that I hope they will never forget. And for sure they'll never forget what i mean evertime I mention SERIOUS.. heheheh.. Stupid couples eyh?? huhu..

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Stupid Couples!! ( Part 1)

It's 3 a.m and i'm not sleeping yet. Just came back from a friends house which is 2 doors away from mine.. We're having an oral presentation tomorrow and we're supposed to have our practise tonight BUT it turns out that we only had our discussion and then i generate their script from the storyline we've planned. The script was done around 1.30 a.m, 4 scenes and the only thing to do next was practically doing the act.

Since it was our busiest day all throughout, I gave them a chance to have a chat on the phone with their hubbies.. (well, i have to tolerate..that's normal) The moment it clocked 2 a.m, i gave them a hint that I'm sleepy and we're gonna be early birds tomorrow since our class starts early. Me, Nana, Aten and Adik we're at the table already, waiting for her to hang up. (Her bf is actually part of our oral group tomorrow!) I waited for another 15minutes, she still chats on the phone as if there'll be no tomorrows to chat. Gosh!!! She's getting me mad and I'm damn sleepy! What does she thinks I am? An owl?

2.30 a.m sharp I decided to leave! That's it. Before I EXPLODE LIKE non of the things anyone could imagine, it might be better that I leave.. Someone might get hurt by my words if I stayed longer waiting for a "NOT WORTH IT" chat to end. I just said bye to the rest and went out slamming the door with HIGH HOPES that she knew I'm damn angry at her.. And her bf is such a STUPID MORON too. He should know that we're having a practise, as if they won't meet tomorrow morning!! Duhh..! That's what i called Stupid Couples!!


P/s: Thats why adik, aten and i always mention to her and her bf, ''orang lain pun bercinta juga".. She on the other hand took it as a compliment and smile.. Stupid!!

What?? So fast meh??

Today marks the first anniversary we left Kem Bumimas.. Kump 1 Siri 4/07.. It was fun during those days in camp.. Full of memories we'll never forget.. Since the first day, till the end of it was the greatest times of all..




I still remember every pathways inside the camp, every activities and i have a whole calendar of the everyday routines.. Friends come and go, so does friends we made in camp, but we wont forget every faces.. Its like brothers and sisters life, we eat together, work together and live together..


Owh dear, if ever we got the chance to turn back time, we just hope to just stay there even til forever.. Apart from being restless at the end of each day, and had to rose up as early as 5am everyday, everyone was so happy and merry.. Not to mention not enough sleep gain, as we were all on our feet from 5am till 11pm.. Everyday routine was the same though.


Nevertheless, bestfriends are the best part.. Sylvia, Alviana, Anthianne and Dayang. They're the best.. Even until now, we still contact each other eventhough we were far off because of studies. The five of us now lead different ways..

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(alley took pic)

"hey gurls.. really mish u gurls so much.. I still remember our cheer group. We would cheer out loud in every match except when it was our turn to play..then the boys would continue our role as cheerleaders.. hehe.. That was fun to remember wasn't it?? Then came the most tricky part off all, M.A.R.C.H.I.N.G!! dUHH..!! At first, it was no fun at all coz we havent get use to the weather.. Who would ever think of marching around noon anyway.. But after a few weeks then we were more adaptive.. Still remember miss Fida's shouts of commands and how she went angry because we didnt pay full attention during training.. Then, we would all go to her and make up of all our mistakes.. As a result, she gave us a good time of marching the next day until dinner.. Wow! Tired lorh.. hehe.. After that, we would rush like "Road runner" for our bath, get dress and straight towards our dining hall which was almost close! We deserved it anyway for being naughty..


there was once when the 4 of us plus another 3 others, decided not to go for the praise and worship thingy.. heheh (malas bha.. penat gilak..), we purposely had our bath late that nite and sneak out of the bathroom after everyone had gone outside the gurls dorm territory.. We thought that would be safe since there was no one around.. But we were ABSOLUTELY WRONG..





All seven of us were smiling widely and happy to think that our coaches would not mind checking the dorm.. So we started doing all those stuff we hardly had time to do like, you know, buffing our nails, girls chit chatting, treatmenting our hair (cause' our hair does look outta shape in camp u know..). And it was all fun, fun, fun UNTIL we heard footseps! OmG!! I took a fast glimpse at the clock and it was just 9.30pm.. No way they're done already.





All those cheerie, happy faces went pale blue and everyone tried thinking hard of what they can do to camouflouge theirself from being seen by coach! Hahah! It was awful, i mean the scared faces.. I remembered trying to hide under the bed, but it was suffocating under it since our dorm was hot without the fan on..(sanggup x on kipas, janji jurulatih xtau mekorg ada dlm ya..hihi..)

Then after a few moments of silence, finally the coaches left the place.. It was a great relief. Who knows what we'll get to the extent of escaping programs.. ahaks.. I'm sure one of it would be like, being mention in the morning's assembly..and we would be so famous until now.. (duhh..! we were already famous because of good performance)





Back to the story, after the coaches left we gathered all together near the back door with our ears being alert in case they return.. Huhu.. We talked about it then, and decided that was gonna be our last escaping all throughout camp life and we won't do something bad anymore..

Truly enough, from that second towards the end, we never miss a part in camp life and i'm glad we change because camp life was sure a great experience and that we would definitely regret by now if ever we missed out the best part..

And our last night in camp was the most awful moment we really wanted not to exist. We had tears all over the place that night and guess what?? The boys cried more compare to the girls.. Ahaks.. Should grab a pic of that before and put it in here for the memory BUT everyone was to sad to do so..all we had in mind was, "Why should we leave so soon?"





Ahaks.. That was it.. Months after leaving camp, we would still feel like crying everytime we remember our happy days together in camp. Until now, the first anniversary of our batch.. And i believe that this year's first batch would feel the same way too.. They just finish theirs today.. huhu.. I know how u guys feel, but thats it and it stops there.. Just remember though its the end, but the friendship and family bond between the trainees will never end! Miss u all..

I'm stunned!!

The other day, my boy and i were havin tis' video call thingy.. (guess what? it was d first time our calls get tru') huhu.. and so it was an opportunity for us to kinda seeing each other after spending our holidays together..and that was weeks ago..





We are quite far from each other and the responsibilites we hold unto requires lotsa commitments that we barely had time for each other... Pity us! :( I should say his daily schedules is so much easier to be understand compare to mine.. Mine would be anytime for as long as the earth orbits the sun...





During the call, he showed me everthing he had in collection.. and was so really absolutely STUNNED by the works that he puts my pix everywhere in his room..! Sayang, i'm really touched.. my eyes was teary at that moment.. he realized it but i shed it away..





There was nothing i could say that minute, just to let him show everything he wanted me to know.. And now i really know that he loves me much more than i do.. Sayang, u're the only one who has ever make me touched as deep as that nite.. Thats a nite i'll forever remember..

The tale of "sirap ais"..

It happened last friday (29th feb 08). 3 of my friends and I decided to go down town, strolling for some stuffs for an important function which took place in our college the very same day. First, we went to have our silat uniform taken from a shop. Then, another few things listed.

Time really suprised us when we realized it was past midday and we haven't had lunch yet. On the contrary, we were scheduled to meet Shiera's sister at a hotel where she is currently working at 2.30pm. So, lucky for us that we wouldn't have to rush to find other place to eat and then to meet her. That would be time consume since we're rushing for time to get home too..

And.....


There we were, siting at a table waiting for the waiter/ress to come and take our order.. After awhile scrolling down on the menu and discussed of what to eat, a waitress came and took our order.. Now, here's where the funny thing took place..

(Before i proceed, i need to mention that this hotel doesnt have "sirap ais" in da list..k)


As the scene goes on, i have to mentioned that Fathin admits it was the first time ever that she had lunch in a hotel without her parents and she was feeling quite much of that "heebie jeebies" feeling..to the extent THAT she suddenly opened her mouth and ORDERED her drink which was NOT AT ALL in the hotel menu list.. What was it?? Well she said,"sirap ais, satu kak.."

Of course it was nothing wrong with the ice syrup thingy..but what was she actually thinking of??! It was so clear in the menu that the hotel we were in that day doesnt serve "sirap ice".. Huhu.. Being seated EXACTLY opposite the waitress, i couldn't helped it and started to go red in the face before BURSTING out with laughter..then followed by Shiera and Nana and the waitress herself..

Poor Fathin, she really was embarrassed BUT unfortunately all 4 of us can't helped it but to giggle all throughout lunchtime. What makes the incident more unforgetable is it happened on 29th FEBRUARY, the day which exists only once in 4 years and we doubt that she will forget about it..BECAUSE WE WONT ATEN!!!! LoLzzzzz....


p/s: the moral of the story is, even if you are feeling nervous..please do take attention of what you're gonna say or do..cause it might end up unexpectingly nevertheless EMBARRASSINGLY!!! Ahaks...

Being Hectic..overcome it??

Being hectic?? Here i am in front of my lappy with a frowning stressful face. This semester seems so short and it keeps getting me on the go.. I cant help saying "I AM SO EXHAUSTED"..Imagine everyday catchin' up with the syllabus.. We've got 5 weeks before our final examinations and guess what??! We havent yet have our quiz(s), oral presentation(s), assgment(s) undone and not-fully given, a few lecturing skipped and had to be replace.. Not yet mentioning my proposals due tis' 20th march. And i've gotta sketch task just given today and due next wednesday which in that week i'm fully-packed with quiz(s) and test!! OmG!!!!!!

There's something between me and my boy and it makes me feel even MORE STRESS! Gosh! Where is he when i need him the MOST! He's always not there!! I'm tired of crying..and i'm tired of feeling sick. I'm tired of everything. All i needed is a peaceful quite time alone.. i was hoping it would be with him.. duh..!! as if he cares about me.. :( all he knows was me up to date with his schedule..

I'm here faraway from my family..faraway from anything that would actually make me happy. I just wish i was back home, with my mum & dad. Wish i was home in my own room. Wish i was with someone who really love me and deserve me.

Even when i REALLY love that someone, would he actually feel the same? Would he treat me the way he wanna be treated? Would he be there for me, the way he wants me to be by his side when he needs me?

Or will he only turn his back and leave me crying alone, helplessly? Or just wait till i come searching for him? Or hurt me even more after hurting me by leaving me alone?

What is LOVE? Why does it hurts so much? Eversince a child, i was taught that love is a pure feeling, a special gift money cant buy, understands u, cheers u up when u're down, and it eternity.. But i cant see how true it is. I cant see it. Why? Where's that LOVE people adore so much?????????????

Teman atau Kekasih?

Apakah kamu percaya bekas kekasih boleh menjadi teman baik? Terpulang kepada individu kerana bagi saya sekiranya kisah cinta kita berakhir dengan persefahaman, ada kemungkinan tetapi jika disebabkan oleh salah seorang curang, pasti jawapannya TIDAK! Memang benar ada yang saya lihat boleh rapat kembali dengan bekas kekasih dan menjadi akrab sebagai kawan tetapi tak kurang juga yang bermusuhan walaupun masing-masing sudah ada teman lain. Agaknya luka tersebut amat dalam hinggakan kalau boleh kelibat pun tidak mahu dilihat. Besar kesannya sebuah percintaan..



Banyak percintaan yang bermula dengan persahabatan namun jarang sekali persahabatan bermula dari sebuah percintaan, apatah lagi percintaan yang gagal. Sepatutnya memang boleh menjadi teman baik kerana sewaktu bercinta, kita banyak berkongsi cerita dan rahsia tetapi realitinya tidak sebegitu. Bila cinta sudah tiada, maksudnya hubungan dengan dia sudah tiada.

Ada yang berpendapat tidak praktikal rasanya kalau si ex dianggap sebagai teman baik. Memang betul, banyak rahsia yang dikongsi bersama tetapi harus ingat dengan si dia, bicara kita berbeza sedangkan dengan teman baik, ada perkara yang tidak diketahuinya yang dikongsi.Dulu dialah orang yang kita puja, impikan, sayang sepenuh jiwa raga. Mana mungkin kita berborak seperti dahulu. Pasti teringat kembali semua perbuatannya yang menyakitkan hati.

Jarang sekali, kalau ada pun peratusannya agak kecil dan kiranya kamu termasuk dalam golongan yang menjadikan ex sebagai teman baik, itu satu kelebihan. Bekas kekasih tetap dianggap sebagai bekas. Tiada apa lagi yang bersangkutan dan bagi yang benar-benar terluka, kalau boleh ingin melupakan terus episod duka tersebut. Ditambah pula sudah diwar-warkan kepada teman dan mereka pula berusaha untuk menjadi penghibur bagi melupakan si dia. Apa yang sudah berlalu pasti tidak akan menjadi sama dan sesuatu yang diketahui umum terutamanya teman-teman baik kerana jika bertemu dengan bekas kekasih pun, kenangan silam tidak mungkin dialami lagi dalam situasi yang sama. Hanya teman.

Payah kan..... Mahu jadi teman atau kekasih. Kalau jadi kekasih tak boleh jadi teman kerana "treatment" untuk kedua insan ini berlainan. Jadi, kalau bekas-bekas kekasih yang berangan mahu menjadi teman karib bila sudah putus kasih tu, jangan terlalu menyimpan angan-angan. Kiranya si dia tidak mahu menerimamu sebagai kawan, janganlah kecil hati. Carilah kawan atau teman baik yang lain.

Namun, mungkin satu kelebihan itu ada pada diri kerana ex kini menjadi teman. Mungkin tidak seakrab dulu tetapi sekurang-kurangnya tidaklah bermusuh atau memanjangkan muka tatkala "reunion" bersama teman-teman lama. Kami masih boleh berbual namun tidak seperti dahulu, ada batasnya kerana diri ini kini sudah berpunya dan tanggungjawab kita adalah untuk menjaga hati dan hubungan yang baru berputik. Ceritera yang lalu biar disimpan jadi kenangan dan syukuri lah si dia yang baru kerana kehadirannya membawa seribu makna.

(me n my hubby)

Terpulanglah kepada setiap individu. Teman atau kekasih hanya diperingkat permulaanya sahaja. Apapun yang penting pilihan di tangan kita. Buatlah keputusan yang baik..

Studies & Exams A Blessing..

Study?? What is it to u? A burden? Or a blessing?? Ahaks..my colleagues would likely to call me INSANE cause i keep on saying studies and examinations are a blessing, and not a curse..



Why do i say its a blessing..? (Good Quest!) Have u ever think that what we gained through knowledge is an unseen blessing from above?



Ok. Here's my point of view towards these study and examinations thingy..

1. Studying is a lifetime asset because we ARE studying 24 / 7..

2. It is not at all a BURDEN..and if u people out there thinks its a burden, better dont waste anymore precious living seconds to live.. No point of living.. If u wanna stop studying, might as well u stop livng..

3. By studying, we gain knowledge..but to test our understanding we HAVE to undergo examinations. If not, so what for wasting time to study??

4. By having exams, students would know of their strengths and weaknesses and teachers would have the chance to measure their students capabilities for once.

Take a deep thought and think how will we live without studies? What will our world become of without technologies as today? Will we be able to communicate through mobile phones like we do now? Will we have all those awesome facilities to be use? Will u be able to read my blog now if there werent any educations?



So, still think that those important things in life are a CURSE??!! I hope u dont!


Here's a few words for u people.."People who are phobia of exams, tend to study at the last minute..and ends up failing"

So, think about it.. Studies AND examinations are a BLESSING and NOT at all a curse..

My Sista!!

Hey guys!! My youngest sister.. Gwyn's her name.. A "LEO" and truly enuff dat she's fierce and stubborn! She's comin' 13 tis year but HELLO? she looks older than me..

Wanna noe sumting?? Its very hard to keep her quite.. Always on her move here and there. One minute she's next to you, in another secs she gone elsewhere.. Ahaks..

She shares a special communication with my boyfriend, Rodriguez..huhu..to the extend that they never can communicate without arguing! LoLz..

Well..actually i myself have had a hard time speaking with her in person. Advicing? Duhh..! Try her.. She's got thousands of unpredictable annoying answers..heheh.. but she's my sista oaite..

Born on the special date of 08/08/95, tis' year is gona be a very special year for her.. Yupp! 08/08/08.. I'll see if i can manage to come back sweetheart. "What do you want for your birthday tis year? No hanky panky stuffs k.."

I miss her so much though most of the time we quarrel and do all sorts of mimickin' towards each other.. But thats what makes our sisterhood life so SPECIAL.. Not yet mentioning my eldest sista, Sharon..ends up the middle one (dats me oaite..)being bullied.. Hey! NOT FAIR!

But..I LOVE BOTH OF YOU>>

~CINTA~

Mengapa cinta pertama sukar untuk kita lupakan? Mengapa masih si dia yang kita nantikan walaupun setelah sekian lama kita kehilangan gelaran kekasih dalam hidupnya? Biar telah lama mahupun baru sahaja ditinggalkan atau meninggalkan, mengapa kita masih mempunyai perasaan untuk berpaling dan menatap wajahnya biarpun hanya untuk seketika? Sekiranya si dia cinta pertama kita, tetapi bukan diri kita cinta pertamanya adakah dia juga merasakan apa yang rasa? Kata orang tua-tua, tatkala kita merindui seseorang, dia juga sedang merindui kita. Benarkah keadaan itu terjadi? Atau hanya kita yang menanggung beban itu sendiri, hanyut dan leka dibuai perasaan rindu yang tak sepatutnya wujud dalam sanubari kita lagi. Tapi mengapa begitu sukar untuk dilupakan? Kesedihan jelas terdampar ketika terkenang si dia yang paling kita sayangi selama ini kini berjauhan. Biarpun kini cuma sahabat tapi sukar untuk menerima kenyataan bahawa hubungan intim yang dinamakan cinta itu tak boleh didapati kembali. Segala kesukaran yang dilalui bersamanya dan juga untuk bersamanya bagai sembilu yang menusuk hati pabila diingati semula. Sehingga sekarang, biar hanya bergelar sahabat, namun andainya cinta itu masih kuat dan utuh menggegarkan jiwa tatkala menyebut namanya, perasaan sedih dan sebak itu pasti muncul kembali.

”Hati ini sentiasa memanggil namamu sayang, biarpun masa tak dapat diputarkan kembali. Namun jika ada peluang kedua yang memanggil, seru sahaja namaku dan aku akan muncul disisimu.”

Begitulah kata-kata indah yang sentiasa mekar disirami rindu yang mendalam dan dibajai dengan sepenuhnya kasih sayang yang tak mungkin dapat diperolehi daripada insan lain. Hanya yang benar-benar menyayangi dirimu dan yang menyayangi dirimu sebegitu hanya seorang saja. Takkan pernah ada yang lain. Percayalah bahawa cinta yang begitu mendalam hanya muncul sekali. Cinta yang mampu menjadi abdi kepada manusia, dan cinta itu juga yang paling didambakan oleh setiap insan yang mengerti erti cinta dan menghargai cinta. Sememangnya cinta mudah didapati, tapi adakah cinta yang kini dimilki benar-benar mencintai kita atau hanya mencintai kehidupan kita? Siapa yang benar-benar berada disisi tatkala berada dalam kesusahan? Siapa yang memberikan motivasi dalam setiap kecundangan? Walau terluka, siapa yang yang menjadikan kita penawar kepada perbuatan sendiri yang telah melukakannya? Walau ditinggalkan namun tetap sabar menantikan kepulanganmu? Walau terasa ditipu, namun tetap mengagungkan dirimu?

Itulah cinta abadi teman-teman. Itulah cinta yang paling sukar untuk didapatkan selagi manusia bernafas di atas muka bumi ini. Mungkin cinta sedemikian pernah muncul dalam diri anda semua tetapi tidak dihargai. Jika pernah, apakah yang anda telah lakukan kepadanya? Mengapa dia akhirnya mengambil keputusan untuk meninggalkan dirimu? Bukan salahnya teman-temanku. Salah diri kita sendiri kerana tidak menghargainya. Namun sedemkian, percayalah bahawa jauh disudut hatinya dia masih menantikan kamu. Carilah dirinya, ketuk kembali pintu hati yang telah kamu kecewakan itu suatu masa dulu. Nescaya dia masih ingin kembali padamu dengan harapan kamu juga mengerti, menyedari dan sedia berubah. Dia terlebih dahulu telah memahami dirimu, cuma minta diberikan peluang kedua untuk menyesuaikan dirinya dengan kehidupanmu. Mungkin kerana gaya hidupmu terlalu kompleks sehingga menyebabkan dirinya sukar untuk bernafas berada di alam kamu. Berikan dia ruangan untuk berpijak, bernafas dan membuat keputusan.

Teman-temanku, sekiranya dia masih dekat denganmu walau telah berpisah, bermakna dia masih mengharapkan dirimu untuk kembali. Kesabarannya menunggumu adalah satu pengorbanan. Percayalah. Sekiranya kamu berjaya mendapatkannya kembali, berilah respon kepada warta luahanku ini. Jika benar apa yang ku katakan mengenai ”cinta ibarat mentari” ini yang sukar dilenyapkan, berilah kekuatan kepadaku untuk meneruskan bidang penulisan mengenai cinta yang sememangnya satu keperluan dalam kehidupan seharian.

Sekian.

~CINTA~